Updated: Aug 23, 2021
Have you ever been so impatient to get where you are going that you truly forget to enjoy the trip?
It is much like going through the changes in your spiritual journey. I am not sure about any of you, but my inability to take it slow and easy can and certainly has reared its ugly head. I want it all and I want it now. That is the exact moment that I usually forget that this is God's plan for me that I am working on and I attempt to get what I want on my own.
I will save pages and pages of examples and summarize the outcome. Each and every time it was an epic fail!! When I say epic fail it doesn't mean that I never end up with what I wanted, unfortunately, many times I did end up with exactly what I wanted but only to find out it wasn't what I needed or what was good for me.
My impatience has gotten me into many situations that I know had I waited on God's direction and answer I would have received not what I wanted but what I truly needed and what would be good and benefit my life. Good old pride shows up and away we go thinking we can do it all.
1 Peter 5:5 talks to us about how God gives grace to those who are humble and is opposed to the proud; he defeats them. So when you hear that little voice in your head saying "What is going on? No matter how hard I try nothing goes right or turns out!" there is your cue to take a good look at where you are putting your trust. Is it in yourself or is it in God's grace to provide for you?
Learning these lessons seems to be an ongoing class for me. Breaking old habits, even if they have been nothing but detrimental to my life, is not an easy task. The positives that come from learning to change your actions and thoughts are that there is more peace and less time is spent riding on the crazy train. Less time getting yourself all tied up in the knots and learning to function from a place of love and having the right motives driving you. Slowly you learn to recognize the signs and know that your feelings are not rational and owning up to the reality that you have boarded the crazy train and disembarking earlier each time.
This journey to a better version of yourself is done step by step and by learning not to be so hard on yourself is imperative. Go easy on yourself and take a moment to look back and see how far you have come. One set back does not negate all the work and successes you have achieved. It does not define you. It is only a blip on the screen. Keep moving forward.
Satan wants us to view our failures as unforgivable and the reason we give up. Remember, God is love, there is nothing that can't be forgiven and God is crazy about you. Let's all just relax. Take a deep breath and motor on while relying upon God's grace as we continue our journey to perfection. Change is a process and takes time.
Enjoy the trip!