Updated: Aug 23, 2021
Yesterday morning was just a normal day in my life. Nothing took place that brought great joy but nothing brought sorrow. I did my devotions and started work. However, shortly after 1 pm, I was faced with a chance to witness to a friend who was going through a tough patch of which I was all too familiar. As she told me her story, the rage inside her became so very apparent that it broke my heart. Not only for her, because I knew what she was experiencing, but because I saw myself in her eyes and realized how angry I had been for so many years.
I let her unload and when she was finished, she looked at me and said, "What would you have done? I know you have been here before." It was at the precise moment that I realized just how far I have come in my spiritual walk. I won't go into details of the whole conversation but I shared with her what I use to do what she had done and fought back hard, attempted to defend myself to others who were not owed an explanation, and how I would continue to spin out of control because someone pushed my buttons. I then asked her did she believe and follow God. Her response was yes. Then I asked her what she had gained by participating in this two-week fiasco, nothing was her answer. We chatted then about letting others steal our joy and allowing them to steal our power. Then we moved on to not having to defend ourselves to others and rest in God versus wasting time and energy reacting to others.
When I was leaving, she thank me and said I knew you would give me good advice. I never said anything to her but my thoughts went to how thankful I was to God for the work he is doing in me because my counsel may not have been good had the old me answered. As the tears came down her face, she said "thank you for calming my spirit." I told her she could call me anytime but to involve God in all aspects of her life by praying and reading her Bible. That is was God who provided me with his guidance and how wonderful it is to learn to trust in him.
As I walked to my car, she yelled out "how did you get to this place of peace?" I burst into laughter. My response was "oh my darling, I am the perfect bad example. I have messed it all up and wasted many years fighting and being angry. God, that is the one and only reason I have peace." Then she reminded me that people are truly watching as she responded, "you are a great example and you are so much fun and entertaining." With that, I drove off with a light heart and the feeling that my shortcomings of my past God is using to help me help others who are hurting and in situations, I have been in.
I have been praying about, asking God what my gift is, and I think I may have had a small glimpse of how he will use me if I stay dedicated and loyal to him. Romans 12:2 states "Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing, and perfect will."
There was a time I was conformed to the pattern of this world. However, taking the time that was afforded to me during Covid I have a renewed mind. Yesterday was a test and I am so elated that I was able, with God's direction and assistance, to leave someone better than I found them. I am so glad I could share the message to live as peacefully as you can and rest in the knowledge that God has this all under control. The old me would have not given words of wisdom but words of a fool.
1 Corinthians 1:24 states "This wisdom is a kind of sanctified common sense. It leads to greater self-understanding. It gives you the ability to cope in life and to steer through and master its challenges. It is the sort of legacy good parents want to hand on to their children. Ultimately, wisdom is found in Jesus Christ, who is the "wisdom of God".
Today I am still so thankful to God for his patience and the work he had done in me. I am so very astounded that he allowed me such an experience yesterday. To share how the old me would have reacted and all the negativity that surrounded those decisions and how God's love has changed me and how I have matured in his love and no longer let anyone or anything steal my joy.
Even during the hard times, I remember that God wants me to enjoy everyday life. Romans 12:12 reminds me to "Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be consistent in prayer." Rejoice always (1 Thessalonians 5:16) even if you have to squint to see the positive aspect, it is always there.