Updated: Aug 23, 2021
Ecclesiastes Chapter 1 and Chapter 2: 1-16 was what I read and the question immediately popped into my head, What exactly are we running around working ourselves to the brink of disaster for? Nothing! Not one thing we have built or make ourselves will last forever. The time we spend doing what we do without God's guidance is nothing more than vanity (Ecc. 1-2). Futile, meaningless, nothing but a wisp of smoke and compared to chasing the wind.
There was a period in my life that I was so nervous about finances that I nearly worked myself into the ground. I was very thankful to find the work, at the time, and thanked God for the ability to do it but I was spending no time with God and was a tired miserable old bag when I was at home. I truly didn't have the energy to enjoy my life or my home, the two things I would have used as the reasons I was working night and day.
I think it is a normal part of life to try and better your circumstances and create a legacy for yourself but being wise about how you do it is imperative. The pendulum of your ability to work can easily swing from one extreme to the other. There is one extreme where no work is being done. None with God's guidance, just none at all. God tells us in 2 Thessalonians 3:10 that if any not work, neither should he eat. We are directed to take care of our own. In 1 Timothy 5:8 it clearly states if any provideth not for his own, and specifically his own household, he has denied the faith, and is worse than an unbeliever.
Once again I found myself attempting to walk the narrow path of Christianity and ensure that I had balance surrounding my work life, my home life, and my spiritual time with God. As I started to examine my thought pattern surrounding the job that I was seeking or were being offered I quickly realized that they weren't all being sent by God. Something that brings you strife usually isn't from God and especially something that means you don't have balance in your life. God didn't want me working myself into the ground, especially when most of the time I was not bringing any glory to his name.
Recently, I was offered a job that would have challenged me. That was the carrot that even made me consider taking the job. Instead of responding right away, which is what I usually do, I said I had to think about it. I took the time to ask God if this was from him and in the evening hours I had a list of questions that I needed answering before I could make a decision, The next morning I replied with my list of questions and was told they would get back to me shortly. That was over 3 weeks ago and still no response. The sense of peace I had when I hit the send button asking for clarification on the job was amazing. The old me would still be lamenting over did I do the right thing. But when the world can't answer the few simple questions that God provided then I am completely assured that this job had not been sent by God.
I still enjoy doing a good day's work and I strive to do my best in whatever I do. I still want to live a certain lifestyle and have nice things and enjoy my life but I have put some boundaries on myself. God has never let me down and he has promised he will provide.
I have also stopped worrying about what legacy I will leave. It will all be forgotten eventually and we are all going to die at some point. My eye is now on the prize and where I will spend my eternity and not on what I will leave in the world. Ecc. 2:16 says that how does the wise man die? Even as a fool was the answer. I am attempting to no longer put so much emphasis on what I WANT and ensure that the needs are met. I am attempting to keep my eye on the prize of my eternal home. I am attempting to remember the promises that GTod has made. I am attempting to no longer work in ways that are not guided by God.
I no longer want to chase the wind. All things that I have in this world will eventually be gone so why am I killing myself to have bigger or better. My energies are being spent on attempting to glorify God in everything I do and doing it all with a thankful heart. Living in the knowledge that God is still on the throne and no matter what transpires in my life there is a plan and I have to remain in Faith and Peace. No storms last forever.
If I take the time to ensure what I am about to do is of God and he is guiding me I will always walk and not be weary. No more frazzled existence. This is another lesson I am being taught.
Each lesson is making my life easier when the hard work of learning is over. If one person remembers me as someone who loved God, then I have the best legacy.
No more chasing the wind!